just surrender
For the past few weeks, I've been trying to do a short run every morning before work. I find that it helps regulate my mood for the day, and I feel happier because of it.
Although I know running is great for me, I still have to force myself to run. I give myself excuses like "it's too cold" or "I didn't sleep enough".
But I push through and convince myself to get up anyway, even though I'm still dreading this run.
Then I put my shoes on and head out the door and start to run. But even on the run itself, I'm thinking "when is this going to end?". I tell myself that this will be all over soon. Again, I'm dreading the run even when I'm on the run.
And this feeling of dread doesn't stop. It sometimes gets to the point that even after completing today's run, I'm already dreading tomorrow's run. That doesn't sound like a fun way to live.
So what if I just surrendered? What if I told myself that no matter what I do, this run is going to suck regardless. It's going to be hard and painful and cold.
This mindset would probably take a huge burden off my shoulders. I'd be able to be fully present in my run, instead of always trying to run away from the feeling of discomfort (pun intended).
^ This doesn't just apply to running